No matter the culture, or what the actual date is, the days around New Year are always about reflecting on the past and our hopes for the future. Like most holidays, it marks time, a before-after-point, however artificial, in our lives. We remember years, as we learn about time, first school years, then calendar years. Even before time existed for us, our childhood memories were organized as our childhood pictures are: by summers and Christmases and birthdays.
Something about a set date inspires us to pin our hopes for change, our goals, our aspirations to it. I've never been one for big resolutions on the New Year, or my birthday, or before a certain age, but I have a feeling that this coming year is going to be big and amazing, fertile ground to set all kinds of wild and woolly dreams free.
Change is a funny thing. Before it happens, it seems intimidating, unsurmountable, sometimes unfathomable, yet the moment it arrives, good, or bad, it becomes our reality.
I don't know about you, but change is hard for me. I dread its arrival, worry about its consequences. Or at least that's what I've always thought. Yet, I've often sought it, made intuitive decisions at moment's notice, turned on my heels and gone the opposite way. I've changed countries, continents, careers, life plans, married someone after knowing them scarcely a year, embraced the utter unknown against all reason on the strength of my internal compass and looking back, it's never led me astray. The opposite, in fact. Whenever I've truly been lost in my life, I've chosen change and found myself again and again.
Well, sometimes I've found myself at rather strange places and circumstances, but found none the less. Beggars can't be and all that...
For me, 2013 has been the year in waiting, the seemingly everlasting moment when things just hang in the air right before gravity takes hold, a place of uncertainty and tension. That's not to say that nothing happened, there was plenty of life and movement, and our "new" lives have been in steady motion in the last quarter of the year, but it has decidedly been twelve months of the "what if?".
I guess what I'm trying to say, is that, I'm ready. Come what may. That you can't fear the inevitable. And while all this other stuff is changing, I'm actually resolved to make a few additional changes and take a couple of extra risks.
We're going forward with our bravest selves first, not the brash, bragging ones, asserting their own bravery, but just deciding to trust our instincts, ready to pick the good fight. More than anything, to me, being brave is the going towards the big, scary things and trusting that you'll somehow manage.
This spring I was getting a lot of readings that warned me about a coming change, emphasis on the word warned. They were making me rather apprehensive because they implied nothing about the quality of the change. That is until Amber let me borrow her Wild Unknown Tarot at the Herbal Symposium. I asked the same question that had been plaguing me all spring and this is the card I pulled. The very same one that appeared this morning.
"The Two of Pentacles signifies inevitable change. Since the pentacles suit relates to earthly possessions this usually means a new job, financial situation, or a move. Even if you fear this change it needs to happen & might even be fun. Face it with the grace of a newly formed butterfly...a world of possibilities balanced upon your delicate wings."
A change is coming for sure. It's already here. You know, because it's like, the only constant and stuff.
We don't really none of us have choice about this do we?
I do however, promise you that some things will never change. In the coming year, you will most certainly still be subjected to plenty of pictures of my cats, fowls, the natural world, this red polka-dot frock, my handsome husband, activist rants, book reviews, wild edibles, folk-remedies, thoughts on love, art, human-animal-relations, fairy-tales and mismatched floral patterns.
I'll finally reveal our new undertakings and shower you with gratitude for your patience with my elusive hinting.
In addition, you will hopefully be able to read about the following topics here in the coming year:
Radical Feminism, God, Religion, Spirituality and Faith, Female Friendships, The Practice of The Tarot, The Death of Blogging, Why Would You Not Have Children?!?!?, Wild Women of The Woods, Clothes and Consumerism. To start with...
What's changing for you and yours in the new year? Do you thrive on change, or like me, feel a little intimidated by it?
And hey, Happy New Year!